wish list #1

There is always the danger that when you bring a fantasy to life, it isn't going to be all that you hoped. Thankfully, my first MMF threesome was more or less everything I hoped it would be, and something I can and will and do enjoy still. But I don't fantasise about it anymore; simply because it isn't a fantasy anymore.
Do I have any regrets though? Of course I don't - getting fucked by two men is fucking intense. I just don't use it as wank fodder anymore. I never think about things I have done when I'm playing with myself... I've thought about the people I have done, and the places in which I did them, but never the actual things I did.
I always have to change the script for something more edgy, more dirty, more unlikely. Whether this is normal or not I don't know, but this is how my perverse mind works.
And my perverse mind thinks these fantasies really should come true at some point in the future... it just makes me wonder what depths I'll have to go to afterwards to create new fantasies!

1. I want to be a bukkake girl. The idea of men surrounding me and offloading on to my naked body just makes me quiver with unbridled lust. And I want to know if being covered in the cum of many strangers is as humiliating as I imagine it to be.
2. Along similar lines, I would love to be a gang-bang girl too. In my fantasies this is in a very public place, like a bar, for example, but I doubt I am going to be fucked by five guys down my local pub without being arrested, or worse, but perhaps I could get away with it in a sex club? It would still be hot though, even in private, to be the centre of so much horny attention. I don't know what I anticipate the most about this; having all my holes filled at once, or all those hands...
3. This is my edgiest fantasy at the moment - purely because I'm not sure my head is in the right place to be able to cope with it in reality, but in fantasy, being dominated by the boyfriend and another woman is my favourite wank fodder. Strangely (or not?) I actually feel many emotions when I imagine him fucking another woman while I'm knelt on the floor beside them, other than just horny. I feel my stomach churn with humiliation and jealousy, I feel angry and useless, and it's almost a punishment just thinking about it, but it just turns me on so much. I have a particular image in my head where this woman makes me fuck the boots on her feet and that in itself does it for me.

That's just a snippet of my perverse mind - there are plenty of other fantasies, but these are my favourites and top of the to-do list!