where to start

I've worked it out. Better than that, I've worked me out. After all these years. Fancy that.

For all my submissive tendencies, I am notoriously difficult to dominate. If you met me, the last thing you would say I am is "submissive". I am outgoing, outspoken, and quite often out of control. I have a rebellious streak running through me like letters in a stick of rock, and I aim to please.... myself. That's not to say other submissive types aren't loud or confident or selfish or wild - in fact the majority of us "hide" our submission very well. It's like a separate half of my identity, or something... something that's unfortunately not brought out in me very easily, or often.

But, thanks to some recent interrogation, I've come to a startlingly obvious conclusion: In order to even stand a chance of dominating me, you first have to get in my head, and make me squirm.

Quite a challenge, considering the open-minded self-confessed slut and exhibitionist that I am, but it is possible. And if you can make me feel uneasy, or self-conscious, or chest-pounding, stomach-churning shy you might be able to get me on my knees too.

Take this recent "interrogation", for example. Some questions, asking me about my little kinks - that's all it was really, as thick and as fast as those questions came, and as personal as they were. But not knowing the person in that way (yet) made me instantly feel at least as self-conscious (and ridiculously shy) as I sometimes do when writing this blog, especially when I end up admitting to things like my deep lust for depravity and humiliation.... a kink that many don't understand, and some even feel disgusted by (freaks).

I guess you could say it's humiliating for me to admit that being humiliated turns me on. Which I suppose, in theory, means I could be turned on right now...

So then, anyone here with an A level in psychology? ;)