bright lights and revelations

After taking a long hard look at myself this week, I've made a conscious decision to be more pro-active about my kinks. There is too much thinking and talking going on around here, and not enough doing, and it can't carry on like this. The light isn't going out, and no matter how tightly I shut my eyes, I can still see it. So I'm going to open them, and to hell with it.

I think the breaking point was The Extreme Porn Bill, which made me want to stand up and be counted, and defend the BDSM community that I am a part of, even if it has only been in spirit for the last 20 years (lol). And it was the realisation that I am a part of the community that's spurring me into action, and not my passion for extreme porn - honestly!

I've celebrated this by dumping my old profile on Informed Consent which was created back in 2003 (although for what reason I don't really know, as I've never contributed anything), and creating a shiny new one. I am going to get involved, I am going to embrace everything it has to offer me, and I am going to shake this procrastinating bitch out of me if it's the last thing I bloody do.

If I could also shake the angry bitch, the scared bitch, and the impossible bitch out of me too, that would be a big help, because as things stand right now, I'm a fucking terrible sub.

If I could get the muse out of my head, that would be even better.